What an honour to be a Finalist for the EVA Awards Training & Coaching category!
Regardless of what happens, this process provides an opportunity for reflection.
In the spirit of sharing honestly and openly, here’s my truth.
Last year I was grateful to be nominated, but I wasn’t ready to accept.
Impostor syndrome has been a significant part of my journey and I wanted the perfect solution i.e. for it to bog off (censored version)!
But along the way, I learned to come to terms with progress rather than the illusory lure of perfection.
I also learned that confidence is apparently not a guarantee in my world, but one factor I had undervalued all this time was my courage.
I often don't have the feeling of confidence, but I am finally owning the fact that I have courage and strength of heart, because I don't give in to fear, I choose growth.
The reality is that I freak myself out and exhilarate myself in equal measure!
So I recently had my interview with the judges (realised afterwards how differently I might have done it, but it is in the hands of the universe now)!
So how do I feel honestly....it's a mixture, us humans are quite complex!
Nervous excitement! I have never had this experience before! I do NOT have impostor syndrome about this (last year I would have had)! As someone who has struggled to give myself credit, that is a brilliant reflection point to be at. I am grateful, because I have done the hardest work of my life, faced the good, the bad and the ugly within myself. I have personally been through / going through a deep level of transformation where my beliefs and everything I thought I knew about myself have been rocked to the core! My talents are hard earned, I can own that. Blessed to be nominated by a client and up for an award for my passion, for the work I do to empower others to navigate their own change / journey. Absolutely knackered! :D Along with personal transformation, I have been going through the menopause, it ain’t easy! Plus a dose of covid and I haven’t slept well for a long time. Things are turning around now though which is a blessing and I have it a lot easier than other folks! I am enough. Full stop! The end!Whatever happens, I love myself, I love my work and I love my clients.
I have a beautiful and most importantly, mutually loving support network (you all know who you are and I wouldn't be here without you!) and so, what more could I ask for?
Congratulations to everyone who has been nominated and your personal reflection points.
Be you, truly, madly, deeply, Amanda G
P.S Most of all, I look forward to partying like it’s 1999 on the night! :D